In more ways than one I have been pushing the limits as far as what I can eat yet still not gain weight or perhaps try and lose weight. It all started with a single cashew. I ate it, didn't think twice and of course I didn't gain weight so I pushed a little more and yesterday I had a few more nuts. You would think stepping on the scale this morning and not seeing it move would motivate me not to eat more nuts. Nope. I ate more nuts today and now I am kicking myself.
I have no idea why I do this to myself but I repeatedly push the limits when I am given a little wiggle room. Starting tomorrow there will be no more wiggle room and I will be tracking everything I eat and the nuts are going in the freezer. I was doing so good at tracking my meals and making sure I stayed within my limits of 50g of fat and protein and then 25g of carbs but noooooo I had to go and push the limits to see how far I could go without doing any damage. In some respects I wish I would have seen a gain from eating cake this weekend because nothing pisses me off more than gaining weight while on this type of a diet. Why I put myself through all this hard work only to ruin it with a couple of nuts? It isn't even about the nuts, nuts are healthy and good for you but come on I have already eaten my allotted calories for the day and there is no reason to push the limits when they don't need to be pushed.
I am only 1.2 pounds away from losing 120 pounds and there is no reason I shouldn't be doing a lot better than this. This process is so hard and why I am making it harder on myself is beyond me.
Tomorrow is a new day.
