Yes I am calling it a relapse just like a drug addict relapses. Carbs and sugar are my drug of choice and it hasn't been fun. I have found myself in this constant battle that I haven't been able to overcome. I do really well one day and then the next not so much. It has been a huge eye opener for me and I am ready to move on. At least today I am.
Some interesting things to note about what I have observed while eating carbs and sugar for oh who knows how long...(I am making this post as something I can go back to and read over and over and over again when I want to eat carbs or sugar.)
- My face is disgustingly greasy
- the hairline acne is back
- I have to use deodorant again after not using it for months (I promise I don't stink when I don't use it)
- i feel irritated way more often than not
- my skin feels dry
- I don't feel as pretty as I did when I was eating primal foods
- seriously the farting is out of control
- bloated to high heaven
- retaining water
- headaches
- loss of self control
- sex drive has plummeted
So with all of those things you would think it would be easy to turn something down and move on right? I mean I know what it is like to feel good why did I allow myself to relapse? That is my million dollar question and believe me I am kicking myself for even getting into this again. I truly feel like a drug addict and headed back to rehab. Effing carbs and sugar, I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am learning that I am not perfect but the drive to be better is back! I want Michaela back!
